I feel a little bit stuck this morning. I felt quite a bit more stuck last night, when I first tried writing this. I had the idea that I would write this before I went to bed so I wouldn’t have to write it at five A.M. when I woke up. I have always been one of those people that have unwittingly subscribed to the philosophy of “Why do today what can be put off until tomorrow”. It’s not that I don’t try to be present, punctual, and live in the now. It’s just that it’s so much easier to imagine myself doing things than it is to really do them.
With that said, I really am trying to form better habits. I’ve written every day for the past week, something I haven’t done in my adult live. In childhood and my teenage years I thought nothing of sitting up half the night filling a notebook. It’s harder now. I’ve somehow made it feel like work, even though I don’t get paid for any of it. I don’t mean to say that I don’t enjoy work. When I have plenty of it my life feels rewarding and when I don’t have any I feel empty. Work gives me a sense of purpose. But it’s very hard not to resent the things that we have to do.
I’m still working out the game that I’m going to review for indie spotlight. The first game I picked was a really fun Rogue-like that was just too short to write about. I’m going to link it here because it’s a good way to spend five minutes, even if I can’t write a full review. There’s another game that I grabbed that may be too long and complex for the format of review I do. I think I’ll play something shorter for this coming Saturday and just give myself another week to review the longer game. I really need to spend more time with it.
Another thing that’s exciting is an artist found one of my old postings for a collaboration. The project that I had in mind then is not going to happen, but we’re putting together ideas for a small project that will test out our skills as developers. I also need to finish Super Snake RPG, but I underestimated just how much writing goes into having that many endings. And of course there’s Imperium, my old team’s RPG that I’ve agreed to finish. My plate is full and I promise you guys some real forthcoming content. Provided I can maintain my sanity long enough to deliver. I love you all.